#Unfinished

When I first began my blog seven years ago I was at the beginning of a brand new adventure. Hopefully I can get back into a rhythm of writing (and posting, not just drafting) blog posts again. More details on my new adventure are forthcoming.

Mandisa, a Contemporary Christian artist, released a new album called "Out of the Dark" a couple weeks ago. She has described in interviews that she struggled with deep depression the last few years including gaining back the 120+ pounds she lost and adding an additional 50+ pounds to her body. Personally, I remember noticing that Mandisa had receded from social media. She was no longer posting about Rufus (that's the name she gave her bed) or posting encouraging scriptures. I noticed that she wasn't on tour or putting out any new music. She wasn't even attending award shows to collect her trophies. These things happen, people takes breaks from the spotlight. But her album sheds light on the struggle she had during her darkest times; triggered by the death of a close friend. The opening track on the album gave me a shiver the first time I heard it. It's voice mail messages people left for Mandisa calling to check in and see how she was doing. I've been on both the giving and receiving end of those kinds of calls. Usually you hope you are wrong and there is nothing to be concerned about, but this was a good reminder that usually if you get that "feeling" you are not wrong. There is a photo floating around instagram (I may have posted it on my own page at some point) saying "pray for your friends, you never know what battles they are fighting". This is so true!

There's a lot I'm thinking but not quite saying...

I listen to "Out of the Dark" most evenings at bedtime. It encourages me to fight for my light and also to help my friends fight for their light. The older I get the more candles I see grow dim and that gets discouraging, but I am reminded to have hope.

2 Corinthians 4:6-9 NLT

"For God, who said, “Let there be light in the darkness,” has made this light shine in our hearts so we could know the glory of God that is seen in the face of Jesus Christ. We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed."

Unfinished

Not scared to say it
I used to be the one
Preaching it to you
That you could overcome
I still believe it
But it ain't easy

‘Cause that world I painted
Where things just all work out
It started changing
And I started having doubts
And it got me so down

But I picked myself back up
And I started telling me
No, my God's not done
Making me a masterpiece
He's still working on me

He started something good
And I'm gonna believe it
He started something good
And He's gonna complete it
So I'll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain't through
I'm just unfinished

I know His history
And the kind of God He is
He might make it a mystery
But He's proven I can trust in Him
And yeah, I believe it

Still working
Still, still working on me
He's still working
Still, still working on me



The best is yet to come,
~Adwoa