Held

BELIEVE.

life is magnificent!

will You be my portion?

Tonight (Wednesday) I was supported. My life group who I have been a part of for two months finally broke my shell. I love this group and they know it, but I was still unable to put all my cards on the table.

I didn't actually want to go to our meeting tonight. I wanted to go home and sleep. Then I decided if I went I would set my alarm and leave after an hour. I felt so OVERWHELMED. But two hours later, I was still sitting in the circle with the women and waiting patiently until the final amen.

Near the end of our session, one of the ladies stopped the conversation and said, "Adwoa you've been awfully quite tonight. You said you were feeling overwhelmed...what's on your mind honey?" As I started to speak, my voice began to crack. I didn't know where to start. I found my words and as I spoke, the women lifted me up and held me by offering comforting words. They gave to me out of their life experiences and refused to let me hang my head. They are all at least 15 years older than me and I have a lot of respect for those lessons that only time can teach you.

As I sit at home tonight, I know that this won't be the last time I feel overwhelmed at the portion that God has given me. I've cried about it before and will probably continue to cry about it for the rest of my life. However, the hope that I was given tonight is that who I am is all I'll ever need to be. There are hands in this world that will reach out and give me a hug when I need it, there are hands in this world to rub my back when I cry, and there are hands in this world to hold in times of prayer. If I miss those opportunities, I have done a disservice to myself and to the kingdom of heaven.

Have you never heard?
    Have you never understood?...
those who trust in the Lord will find new strength
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.
-Isaiah 40:28-31

The best is yet to come,
~Adwoa