God Speaking

I haven't been feeling very well the last 3 days. Last night I led our group spiritual night (see "Forgiveness" posting) and had to deliver a very weighty message. I was remembering the day that God gave me the exact words to write down that would become my lesson. It was our first "free day" and I was so excited about getting to take the Tai Chi class that I'd been eyeing for a month. While I enjoyed class I couldn't totally relax and focus on being present. After class I wanted to use the cycles in the gym but they were all full so I left feeling very frustrated and kind of queasy. I thought I had just stressed myself out by being too hard on myself for not relaxing properly during Tai Chi but it was more than that.

I sat in my parked car with the windows down and wrestled with my thoughts. I took out my mp3 player and started listening to a few songs. I got to "So Small" by Carrie Underwood and I heard something different in the song that I had never heard before. I was actually listening to the song word by word and hearing a different story. Well I began to write on whatever I could find, a napkin, the back of a sheet of paper; writing just trying to get it all down. The end result was a message for my house.

When I started to think about it today I realized that when God really needs to get my attention, He will use my physical condition to make me focus. I've gotten nauseous when I needed to pray about something and when I started a relationship that was not what I needed at the time I started to get ill whenever I was around the person. I often start to shake and get anxious when there are specific words I'm supposed to say. I love that God realizes my stubbornness and has found a creative way to make me focus. You'd think one of these days I'd get the message.

This week I've been trying to cut down on my portion sizes. I've struggled with that the last 3 weeks while going steadily to the gym. My will was just not strong enough. I'm not saying I totally enjoyed it but these last 3 days I've been more aware of my body and how it responds to certain foods at certain times because I haven't been feeling well. I am so thankful that God's will is stronger than my own.

You never know how He'll get your attention.

The best is yet to come,

~Adwoa