We have a phrase on our quote wall at the office that reads "people say it's easy...it ain't easy!"
Last night, as I do every couple of months, I was overtaken by the weight of stress from my daily and weekly activities. So much of my time is spent serving. It is spent giving away to/for others. I have no qualms about the life style I have accepted to live save for the fact that many times I don't know how to slow the spout of my giving well. I give until it hurts and I am forced to cry out to God "why is it so hard?!" "why can't it be easy?!?" "why can't I just stop caring?!?!"
At this point, if I'm driving I have to pull my car over because as I've posted before crying and driving don't mix. But last night I was in my room so I was not a danger to myself or others :)
I sighed and breathed and wanted to know why so many of my attempts to give, to care, to serve were so tiring and time consuming. Now at this point YOU may be thinking about very practical things like time management, boundaries, stress relief techniques, etc. and while those are appropriate tools and strategies to assist me they are not the answer to any of the questions I was demanding answers.
Instead the answer I got from God came in the form of a song that I was singing to myself about 14 hours earlier. The song was an answer, a balm, a bit of perspective, and just enough motivation for me to pick my head up and stop complaining.
As you know, this week represents the final week of earthly living for Jesus Christ of Nazareth. In two days, on Good Friday, the man will willingly allow himself to be captured by Romans and crucified on a cross. I watched "Son of God" in the movie theater about a month ago and what stuck with me the most is seeing all the points where Jesus could have turned around, fought back, or resisted the punishing accusations. I would have quit, many, many times. Which is just what I felt like last night and then that song came back to my mind...
It wasn't easy
It wasn't easy
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
Verse 1:
Don't think for a moment, I never felt the pain
You can't imagine the hurt and the shame
They put the nails through my hands
Pierced my side, please understand
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
Chorus
Verse 2:
I didn't have to do it
But I did it anyway
'Cause I really love you, so much I took your place
I died for your sins yes I'm the one
Don't take it lightly what I've done
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
My road and my path are not to Calvary. For that I am grateful. My road and path are not out of poverty, illness, or long-suffering. I am grateful for my portion and will continue to do my best to carry out the tasks I am called to and to love others and myself to the best of my ability. It may not be easy but I know without a shadow of a doubt that the work I am called to do is WORTH IT.
"People say it's easy...it ain't easy!"...but it's doable.
The best is yet to come,
~Adwoa
Last night, as I do every couple of months, I was overtaken by the weight of stress from my daily and weekly activities. So much of my time is spent serving. It is spent giving away to/for others. I have no qualms about the life style I have accepted to live save for the fact that many times I don't know how to slow the spout of my giving well. I give until it hurts and I am forced to cry out to God "why is it so hard?!" "why can't it be easy?!?" "why can't I just stop caring?!?!"
At this point, if I'm driving I have to pull my car over because as I've posted before crying and driving don't mix. But last night I was in my room so I was not a danger to myself or others :)
I sighed and breathed and wanted to know why so many of my attempts to give, to care, to serve were so tiring and time consuming. Now at this point YOU may be thinking about very practical things like time management, boundaries, stress relief techniques, etc. and while those are appropriate tools and strategies to assist me they are not the answer to any of the questions I was demanding answers.
Instead the answer I got from God came in the form of a song that I was singing to myself about 14 hours earlier. The song was an answer, a balm, a bit of perspective, and just enough motivation for me to pick my head up and stop complaining.
As you know, this week represents the final week of earthly living for Jesus Christ of Nazareth. In two days, on Good Friday, the man will willingly allow himself to be captured by Romans and crucified on a cross. I watched "Son of God" in the movie theater about a month ago and what stuck with me the most is seeing all the points where Jesus could have turned around, fought back, or resisted the punishing accusations. I would have quit, many, many times. Which is just what I felt like last night and then that song came back to my mind...
It wasn't easy
It wasn't easy
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
Verse 1:
Don't think for a moment, I never felt the pain
You can't imagine the hurt and the shame
They put the nails through my hands
Pierced my side, please understand
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
Chorus
Verse 2:
I didn't have to do it
But I did it anyway
'Cause I really love you, so much I took your place
I died for your sins yes I'm the one
Don't take it lightly what I've done
It wasn't easy, but it was worth it
My road and my path are not to Calvary. For that I am grateful. My road and path are not out of poverty, illness, or long-suffering. I am grateful for my portion and will continue to do my best to carry out the tasks I am called to and to love others and myself to the best of my ability. It may not be easy but I know without a shadow of a doubt that the work I am called to do is WORTH IT.
"People say it's easy...it ain't easy!"...but it's doable.
The best is yet to come,
~Adwoa
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